I went to Rudy's, and I made it to the South Asians For Obama event at 8:30 that same evening where I stayed for half an hour - "I got to make it to Westchester" - and I felt out of place both places. Earlier in the day I spent about two wonderful hours walking around with my second Adam, my second big catch for my startup, whom I would never have met if I had never showed up on the Island, and I am thinking, perhaps I should say goodbye to the four white Manhattan organizations - DL, DL21C, DFNYC, MYD - absolutely, completely, perhaps I should not go to political events no more, that all my socializing should be to do with my startup, period.
Justin Krebs was not there at Rudy's, and it looked to me like Drinking Liberally was dying as an organization. I think I counted only five people, as opposed to the usual 50. Stephanie showed. She is the most permanent fixture at Rudy's, more so than Krebs. But she is not on the DL Politburo. That right there is the tragedy of the Minority Female.
In a city that is 60% nonwhite, if 90% of the people in a room are white, that is a white room. The first day I got picked up by NYPD, some of the questions I got asked were, is that your vehicle parked in front of your house, how do you get to the freeway from here, where is the tunnel? Before I got told I was a threat to Charlie dumbfuck Rangel, I was metioned the John McCain name. How was I going to react? My reaction to McCain, then and now, is boredom. Yawn.
Maybe Drinking Liberally thinks I am a threat to Justin Krebs, that is why he did not show.
Dan Berger exhibited animal behavior at the Senator Mary event. As of October 2007, Spitzer had done nothing to secure himself a place in world history, I had. But Berger would never have acted the way to Spitzer the way he did to me. That is what makes him a racist white wannabe male. That lowly staffer to an insignificant Congressman - insignificant as in insignificant to world history - described me a physical threat to himself in October 2007, and that was not based on anything I had said, any physical gesture on my part, he described me a physical threat to Elizabeth Caputo in January, Loser Lupinacci in attendance, a few months later that dumbfuck described me a physical threat to Charlie dumbfuck Rangel. The nonwhite person as a violent person is only one step away from the nonwhite person as a dumb person, the nonwhite person as a lazy person. It is image making, it is racist demonization. For Loser Lupinacci to say "You have crossed the line" is racist, but not as racist as Dumbfuck Berger saying I was a "threat to Elizabeth." Neither of them are British. ERC and Denton are British.
Howard Dean never showed up for a DFNYC event with the express intention of meeting Lewis Cohen. After April 2006 Dean showed up at a DFNYC Mixer with the express intention of meeting me. Half an hour before Dean showed up Cohen had to make the point that now I needed to go through him if I wanted to go anywhere in NYC politics. Josh is like, don't get too close, stay away from Dean. He is too famous and big and I am half way there. Two hours later Cohen says to Denton: "Did he screw you at your blog?" I called him a white asshole male a few days later, and a few different times. At a Tom Daschle event, after Daschle recognized him, Cohen immediately turned around and looked at me. Don't you know who I am! About 10 minutes later I thanked Daschle for the trip he had made to Nepal months prior. "You spread some hope when there was very little hope going around." That country is very special to me, he said.
Liz did what Lupinacci did: those were mirror situations. If you are not going to like her back, I am going to say something racist to you.
An African friend relayed a story to me in early 1997. An older white guy, a townie, tried to show him how to use the icecream machine at Food Service. To the African it felt like an experience in racism. A white guy trying to act matchmaker in NYC is showing you how to use the icecream machine.
I did not emerge angry. I am not opposed to meeting any name I have mentioned. It is just that I am not sure I have the legal option to meet anyone DL21C right now. Right now I don't know if the harassment charge was dropped by ERC or NYPD. It is possible it was dropped by NYPD. This guy was on the Island a month, and he is to be deported anyways, so why bother? Drop it. Fly him away. Legalese aside, I made a decison inside. Unless DL21C and ERC directly contacted me to say things are normal now, I was going to stay away indefinitely. That decision made social sense. That also might be the safe thing to do, safety for me. I like my freedom, I like my privacy.
I got bored at Rudy's a few days back. I felt out of place. My biggest consternation with the biggies of the four white organizations has been from day one how you can't get them to email back. Initially I thought maybe they think I am too small a fish. But that behavior did not change even after I was pretty sure they thought I was a big fish. You email them, and they will not email back. Weird. I never understood that. This is a 5.0 town. I want to turn it into a 2.0, 3.0, 5.0 town.
Globally speaking gender is a bigger deal than race. I saw female guards in Alabama having a hard time asserting authority. And so I was going to give political room to women like HRC, ERC and TD. I was willing to take some pain. But white women acting racist are white women not giving s___t about Minority Females also. White women in racist bonding with White Males and White Wannabe Males are not my idea of progressive politicos. You can't do race gender business with them. White Wannabe Males act racist when they are trying hard to be white. White women act protective of white men when white men engage in racist words, racist attitudes. Makes you think. That is not fertile progressive ground. Rather that is what regressives call "the Southern strategy."
HRC wants nothing more than to see a woman president in her lifetime. That woman is a hero of mine. For one, she is not dumb.
Of all the famous people I have read about, the one I most relate to right now is Larry Ellison. Larry had a sweetheart. She went to college. A year later he showed up wanting to marry her. She said she was engaged.
"Excuse me!?" Larry reacted.
At this stage in his career Larry's private life was described "a train wreck." He grew up in Chicago's Jewish ghetto. His third wife left him for a Harvard MBA. His first wife laughed when he promised to make a million dollars if she stayed with him. His second wife would put makeup before going to bed so she did not have to rush in the morning.
There was a time in my life when I could not say I can eat as many eggs as I want. That time lasted until I was about 23 when I flew to America. Until 23 there was this village that I called my homevillage, your typical Third World village, no electricity, no post office, mud roads. Nepal is the poorest country outside of Africa. But then a cousin to my mother was Laloo Yadav's Education Minister in Bihar. Her family was the leading family in her village. My father's was the leading family in his village. I went to the best school in Nepal. And I stepped onto the concept of the post-ISMs individual early on. That is why class as an identity platform has never been mine. And culture also has been elusive. My sense of belonging does not come from any country, any high school, any college. It comes from my family, NYC, my company. I wonder if that is why I am so individualistic.
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